It seems like the universe is providing me with the things that I need in order to grow.
Sometimes it feels like I‘m walking in circles. Situations appear to repeat themselves over and over again, until I have learned my lesson, realized my patterns and finally break out of them.
Leaving my blurriness and alcoholic „shelter“ behind came at a cost. I lost connection to many people, often felt lonely and misunderstood. But therefore my relationship to other likeminded beings is getting stronger.
All my life I felt lonely. But why? I had everything that a child could dream of. I was always surrounded by many people, but still missed the real deep connections. It somehow all felt so superficial - partly because I never let anyone come really close - even though I was longing for exactly this to happen. So why was that? Out of fear to get hurt? Out of fear to be judged? I‘m still looking for some answers.
Getting to know myself better and being open with my vulnerability also opened the gateway to other people’s hearts and trust. I am forever grateful for that.
My loneliness is finally shrinking and I wish this to happen to everyone who experiences this void as well.
It is a (life-)long process with crazy ups and kinda shattering downs, but it will all work out, as long as we keep going.
लोकः समस्ताः सुखिनो भवन्तु
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Lokah samastah sukhino bhavantu.
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May the whole world find peace and harmony.
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